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Friday, April 25, 2008____6:30 AM♥____ learninG thiNgz the hard way has owayz been my thing i suppose.. oh well... relationship in any way has failed wid me... let it be brother sista, love, frenship... niTg it may sound as silly as it is but.. yup..hmm i'm noe really a kid who's living in hell or nithing.. i juzt feel like it.. sum how the ppl dear to me juz tend to leave.. i wounder y... my god brother ((which now i feel really dump abt the relationship)) he's isnt talking to me.. assured!!((noT that i consider everybody's relationship dump..its jut mine)) i'll be waiting.. but the thing is will our relationship be the same as before.. i doubt! its dump... juz like how i think patching up wid ur lover is SUPID and DUMP!!... i think this is too... whr the love wen we're able to a part so loNg and bitch abt one another.. even if the bitching part isn't owayz the possibility.. the parting part is a lil.. well i dunno hw to explain actually..haiz...it juz wum be the same lah!! well well 4 me having a limit wid everyone should be the only solution now... like i dun get the love and concern that i give.. so y bother.. ezi to say hard to do.. ya i noe...and for me.. its vary hard.. even though i've been harsh lately.. really... but i regret.. thinking abt my harsh-ness made me cry.. how i was i ever able to tt.. i've hurt two ppl.. juz by my words.. my temper.. argg.. bad temper liao!! hmmMmmm... poly poly poly poly... wellarmmmmming.. i wen for my first ICG meeting.. wasnt that bad... if ever my real brother(hehe(; the one who was born wid me)) finds out abt this.. i'm more then juz screwed.. lol secret!!sSSsshhHHhh!! i juz love dancing... its like my passion... ive owayz love dancing.. my room is my stag!! but my brother doesn't like me joining stuffs like ICG, indian stuffs... juz becoz he's into heavy metal...((which is cool.. the lyrics which my bro ryte, are superb.. my bros band is cool actually)) but apart from the brother.. its me!! i'm not really into this either... i dun really feel comfy wid so many indians ard me either..lol not tt i anti indian or anything... its juz that the last time i hang out wid indians.. well it wasnt really a good event i can say!! and myb tamil suck.. i'm not the kinda gal who say "ennakku konjam konjam tamil thaeriyum" my tamil suck cos i miss pronounce words.. and sum times it may sound really rong.. experienced... the meaning wen totally rong..hmmmmm.. i juz pass my tamil o LeveL oral summore.. Y.. well coz i talked in english to the teacher..((not totally in english.. i juz explained my tamil words ti her coz she din seem to understand)) Ke ke ke!! considering all this how will i fit in.. gosh oh gosh.. furthermore i've owayz been wid either chinese or malay ppl.. yup so.. its a big difference 4 me!!! wonder.. i'm actually scared.. seniors seem frenly though.. haiz.. who noes thre future niway.. anything may change anytime.. i must stay prepared!! tiNk!! mixture  Monday, April 21, 2008____9:18 AM♥____ i'm not really sure whr to start.... i tot things changed.. i was actually quite happy apart from memories haunting.. other then tat i was doing fine... tried to get over wid things but i just cant.. it seems too hard... ppl ard me teling me wads good 4 me.. i'm actually glad i'ved got sum caring frenz... some betrayals still lies amg em... wen i try hard.. poof its back.. more names.. i've become stone... dun care abt oths i wanna try... its my story i wanna live... typically hard... confused as usual.. i'm lyk ritting wadevas in my mind.. they dun make sense i dun giva a damn... juz wanna let sum burden off.. my story is an ever ending sinkin ship... new school... got couple of frens.. good frens now they seem to be... no "my ppl" frens.. happy till now.. rather stay away actually.. fun happy going.. i've gotta brEAk inbtween.. sad but yup... firm on my decision... i'm fine wid the out cum... a fren i still miss... wonder how ego is meant to be... i left it... but it doesnt seem to leave me... tears i cry of u.. a fren i need of u.. doesnt matter u dun see that... i really dun wanna care!! trying hard to be stone... doesnt wrk tt ezi.. i'm brushing up on my stability... cant seem to balance out.. i'm not even out... I MISS ALL THOSE PRECIOUS TIMES I WOULDNT REGRET KNOWING U GUYS REGUARDLESS THE PAIN I GET!! LOVE U GUYZ TO BITZ!!! THE LIL MEMORIES TT WILL STAY UP MY MIND FOREVER!!  MIXTURE |
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